victoria's secret fashion show = best hour ever

You know for sure I watched the Tom Brady and Derek Jeter future girlfriend free agent pool Victoria's Secret Fashion Show tonight. I have not missed a single VSFS in the last 5 years. It's a can't miss event.

Yet, everytime I watch it, I end up hating my life.

There's so many 10's that I can't help but to think I'll never in my wildest dreams get with a girl as fyne as most of the girls on there.

But that's negative Sawley talking.

Positive Sawley lives by the Henry David Thoreau quote "Let go of the past and go for the future. Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you imagine." (That's a good quote. I have it on the wall of my room.)

A dream I've always had is to get with a hell of fyne supermodel who is a 10. More that just one, preferably. Everyone's always laughed and made fun of me for having way high standards with the females. I can't really argue with them. I admit that I am shallow.

But I've always said that I will have the last laugh. "Just watch" is what I what I always tell people.

Unfortunately, I'm not going to be a rich, popular athlete like Tom Brady or Derek Jeter, so I guess there goes getting a supermodel. But that doesn't count out the 10's. There's plenty of 10's who aren't supermodels.

I could also try to be an R&B singer like Chris Brown, Usher, or Ne-Yo. But that's also a pipe dream. I actually think with practice I could get the dance moves down, though.

So here's what I'll do. I'll just keep striving for the 10's or any girls close to that. I reckon I'd at least get with one sometime.

But I gotta get that done soon. My parents are probably starting to think I'm gay. Not that there's anything wrong with that. I voted NO on Prop. 8.

19 years old and never had a girlfriend. That's not something you wanna go around broadcasting to people. I'm just a picky person. I know what I want and won't settle for anything less.

I've been watching The Pick Up Artist on VH1 and have learned a lot from that show. I don't agree with all the methods, but most of them are helpful.

I've learned what girls' indicators of interest (IOI's) are. That's helpful because I haven't been able to know if a girl likes me or not, which has prevented me from pulling the trigger 99% of the time. I also learned how to "kino escalate" and build interest.

But it's all for not unless I actually accomplish anything.

Negative Sawley thinks I'll probably end up resorting to eHarmony or Match.com. Positive Sawley...well actually my future prospects are grim no matter which way you look at it.

I know me. It's always going to be me in a perfect situation having a conversation with a girl I think is hot and I'll blow it either by not keeping the conversation alive or talking about stupid shit.

Anyway. I'm going to cry myself to sleep again when I'm done with this.

For the record, here are my favorite girls in order who were in tonight's fashion show:
Alessandra Ambrosio (she is officially a MILF now)
Miranda Kerr
Selita Ebanks
Adriana Lima
Marisa Miller

That's a pretty tough list. They're all 10's if you round up. Thousandths of a digit seperate the bottom to the top.

I apologize for sounding really, really, really, really, really shallow in this post.

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